is what I tried to do this morning. It’s only 9:30 am and I’ve already been to the visa place, the doctor’s office and a coffee shop. Well, I’m still at the coffee shop. Today is going to be a looong day.
The place where you get or renew visas is called Mugamma. It’s in Tahrir and is a HUGE building. I don’t even know what all takes place there, as the visa section I saw only covered one floor. The building is monster-huge, and run totally by women! This is a rare occurrence in Cairo. It seems that men mostly run the companies, restaurants and little shops around the city. For example, in the grocery store I frequented last year – and still visit today – there was maybe one woman on staff. Today, however, there are 3 women on staff – and they get to be cashiers! Cool, they’re handling the money! At Mugamma, women run the show. A bunch of power-hungry women who can control how, when and for how much you get your visa. My Australian roommate Natalie is renewing her 6-month temporary residency and will have her passport back in 2 hours from now. I am renewing my 1-month tourist visa and have to come back 4 days from now to pick it up. All they have to do is stamp a piece of paper! It’s extremely arbitrary. I think it might have to do with how big you smile at them. I’m definitely not a morning person, so maybe my smile wasn’t charming enough, who knows.
I’ve narrowed down my schedule now that I’ve been in Cairo for 3+ weeks, going on a month. It’s weird, time really flies. I knew coming in that 2 months wouldn’t be long enough, and that is definitely the case. It’s hard to really delve into things in such a short period of time, but with college and all, I only have so much time in one summer. At times I regret not coming to Cairo earlier in the summer, but then I think about how I really needed a break at home in Evanston. Northwestern really tires you out. I’m currently planning on graduating (”completing”) a quarter early in my senior year. That means that I’ll have fall and winter quarters, but will be home free come spring quarter. I’d be done in March. Wouldn’t that be great? Well I’d be done with silly homework assignments but would still have to complete my senior honors thesis and…well…RUN the Global Engagement Summit in April 2009. How will I do it all? Luckily I have already quit my school job (working at the gym) and will have extra time from that. I’m enjoying my summer in Cairo, but there is definitely something exciting about moving into my own apartment (with two roommates), decorating my room the way I want it, organizing my life and having a fresh start at the beginning of the school year. I’m really looking forward to co-directing the Global Engagement Summit with my friend Rajni, but it will definitely be a ton, ton, ton of work. Good thing our staff of 50 or so is awwweeessome.
I’m feeling a little out of sorts today. Maybe it’s because I’m thinking about the upcoming year. I don’t know. I guess it’s that Cairo this summer isn’t really what I expected. I had planned to work directly with refugee communities, connect with old friends and build on our friendship, take Arabic, do thesis research etc. etc. I’m not really working directly with refugee communities – which is unfortunate because I really thrive on personal, human interaction. Most of my work is done in an office behind a computer. I have been working with my Egyptian co-worker Mai (who has become a really close friend of mine over the past couple of weeks) primarily on the website development for the organization. We have written up a website proposal and talked with quite a few web developers. It looks like we will be working with Ultimate Designs, a local web developer group. They made a demo site and it looks pretty neat. This website will be an accessible portal for relevant stakeholders. As the Egyptian Refugee Multicultural Council, Tadamon acts as a networking organization and brings different actors together. The people that use the website will include NGOs, community-based organizations, individual refugees and the like. Hopefully it will be a “one-stop shop” for current news, events, organizations and resources in the greater Cairo area for both Egyptians and refugees.
I wish I were taking Arabic lessons – colloquial lessons. It’s important to me to be able to communicate with people, wherever I am. Arabic is an extraordinarily difficult language to learn, and I much prefer to learn “on the ground” than in a classroom, simply because it is easier and more fun to practice in the local setting, like getting in a taxi and having a short conversation with the taxi driver. They are really surprised – and delighted – to hear you speaking Arabic. No matter your level, they will always say that your Arabic is “kowayyiz awi” (”very good”) even if it’s not (which is the case for me!). I do try though, and have remembered a bit from last year. Not as much as I’d like, of course. I was always much better at fusha (written Arabic) than ammiya (spoken Arabic). I still have a month left, so I am determined to get a tutor, maybe twice a week. It’ll make me feel better. Like I’ve taken the necessary steps toward that prior goal. It’s honestly just difficult to do so much. Even if I’m not meeting all my “goals” for the summer, I still feel so busy. I just try to remind myself that some people come to Cairo ONLY for Arabic, nothing else. They do it 5 times a week and have free time to do as they please. I’ve realized that it’s not that ridiculous that I haven’t started Arabic tutoring yet, as I’m trying to intern/work on 2 projects (website and income-generating activity), do organization site visits and meetings, volunteer when possible, connect with old friends, meet new people, explore the city, read, work on GES, think about my thesis, take time to rest from this hectic city, blah blah blah blah blah. Maybe everyone’s that busy, and I’m just a complainer. I hate making excuses, I’m just so frustrated at times. One thing that is really stressing me out is that I haven’t officially said “no” to the Fulbright Scholarship program. I had signed up – which is by no means contractual – and really did consider it. I just don’t think I want to spend a year right after college living abroad and researching. I was planning on coming back to Cairo – or definitely somewhere in the Middle East – but really want to have a stronger handle on Arabic. If I decided to return to Egypt, I would probably study what I had been research last fall and what I planned on writing my thesis on this coming year – the creation of art by refugees as a way to cope psychosocially and financially. For some reason, now, when I think of the idea it’s like beating a dead horse. I don’t know why. I love art. I love the experiences and the friendships and the research that came out of last fall at American University in Cairo. I don’t know what has changed – maybe I’m just in a different place, mentally, now. Things have definitely changed over the past 7 months. i have no idea what I’ll write my Anthropology thesis on now. Maybe still this topic – if my interest is revived. It is definitely a new topic to study – not much has been written about it, at least in Cairo. I’ve also become recently interested the Iraqi plight in Cairo. Refugees from Iraq have been streaming in for the past 2 years. Their case is particularly interesting because, generally, they don’t consider themselves “refugees.” It is said that they have too much pride to label themselves as such. This mindset is especially dangerous because without admitting that one is a refugee and seeking – and then accepting – assistance, one will not better their current situation. And for many, the situation is bad. Adults are unable to get jobs and thus eat away their life savings, kids have difficulty getting into schools, and the list goes on. Another interesting aspect of the Iraqi refugee issue is that some African refugees see the Iraqis as getting “special treatment.” There has been some problem with discrimination – and active resentment – towards Iraqis because they are getting resettled to a third country and some Africans are not, many of whom have been here for 5+ years. Honestly, it’s because many Iraqis are in much more dire – and dangerous – situations than others. This has led many refugees already in Cairo – who cannot find a means to an end in Cairo – to try to go to Israel. Some make it (like my Sudanese friend Adam – who’d been in Cairo since 1981!!!!!!!!), some don’t and get killed during the journey or when they get to the border. For other reasons, 1000+ Eritrean refugees were deported earlier this year, for no designated reason other than that they were here illegally (but so are thousands of others…why these particular ones?). More on this later…
Anyway, beyond not “feeling” the Fulbright right now, I just really want time to lead a steady life in America. I want to get a “normal” job – not internship or volunteer position – and get a salary (the job, of course, has to be better than working at the university gym!). I want to stay in one place – uninterrupted for more than 6 months (I have basically traveled every summer since junior year in high school – I feel so grateful for those experiences, but I really need a break. Traveling and living abroad can really exhaust you.) I guess to make myself feel better I just need to notify the Fellowship Office. They will probably offer a lot of advice on other things that I can do – such as an intensive Arabic language course. Plus, I can do Fulbright 10+ years out of college, so I’m in no rush. This is something no one should rush into. And I’d only do it if it felt right, and it doesn’t feel right right now. You can’t complete good research if the idea and trip is forced. You have to want to explore, want to succeed. I know that I would do a fine job, but I’m not yearning for the Fulbright right now. Maybe that will change in the years to come. Or maybe something else will surface. Thinking about the future is stressful though. Eek!
I think what it is is that I’m not used to things happening more slowly – and with more steps along the way (i.e. going to 5 different windows at Mugamma instead of 1) – in Cairo. There’s definitely a different concept of time here than in America. In America, you better be on time to a meeting. Here, if you’re late to a meeting, no worries (usually. In some cases it’s different of course). I mean, I guess I’m frustrated because the things that I have to do don’t necessarily need to take a long time, they just do, which makes me dread the process, which makes me unmotivated. It’s a stupid little circle that I need to get out of. I have so many “to-do” lists here and it’s driving me insane! I need to start crossing this stuff off!!! The one thing that I’ve been very good at though, which is quite ironic since it’s difficult for me to get going in the US, is going to the gym. It’s ridiculouslyyyyy overpriced here, but it’s something I think is important to spend money on. I went on medication this past year that made me BALLOON. I gained like 15-20 lbs, which hasn’t been pleasant…at all. From new stretch marks, to lower self-esteem, to getting the “fat” talk…it’s just awful. But, I’ve taken things into my own hands and am getting back on track with exercising and am eating extra healthy (even though I already did – regardless of what you think, parents!). The gym is actually fun. The doorman is super nice and always talks to me. He and his young son work the door and the giving out of locker keys. There are 2 floors of the usual equipment and TVs that play American movies and shows in Arabic. There are trainers “on call” to help you with personal training and with figuring out how the heck to use this certain (confusing!) machine. I’m pretty independent and like to figure things out for myself, so it’s at times frustrating when I’m testing out the machine (incorrectly, but in the process of figuring out how to use it) and they walk over and stare, ask if you need help, me saying “no that’s okay, but thank you, I’m fine. Am I doing it wrong?” and them saying “no no it’s okay” and then staring at me telling me with their eyes that they NEED to help me figure it out. It’s a little bit pushy for my taste, but that’s just me. I know they mean no harm at all. I guess working out and being in “my zone” is a personal thing and I need the time to myself, undisturbed. The uniform for the trainers/staff is red shirts that say FDA (Fitness and Dance Academy) on them. The women have matching red hijabs (head scarf) to go with it. [It's interesting, actually, to see the different clothing and fashion in Cairo. Many Muslim women, especially younger women, who wear the hijab treat it as an extra accessory with which to make an outfit. I by no means am trying to downplay the religious importance of wearing the hijab, I just think it's fascinating to see a color scheme held throughout the outfit. Green hijab, green shirt and green shoes, for example. Something else that is interesting fashion-wise is how some Muslim women will wear fashionable, "hip" tanktops but to remain culturally appropriate, will wear a tight, long sleeve shirt underneath, so their skin is not showing. It's quite creative, and gives a chic look.] Anyway, I usually go to the gym at night, so that I don’t get gawked at too much (having it be darker out helps a lot! Haha). In the US I wear shorts when working out. Here, though, I always where yoga pants. I rolled them up to my knees one day and felt too “exposed.” But then again, I feel “exposed” when I walk around in a regular t-shirt. I really do prefer to wear long sleeves. I still get hissed at though. Although I have a couple of come-backs in Arabic for the really nasty remarks. It will help when Nathaniel is here (he gets here in 3 days, yay!) and can walk around with me. Walking around with a man makes verbal harassment much more rare. He will put them in their place, I’m sure ha ha.
Okay, now it’s time to write blog posts about the past couple of weeks…


























